#16 insecure mess, handle with care

it's been a while since my last entry. so here i am after sucet asked me to blog. haha. soooooo, what to blog? think think think --- dead end. 

in my 20th, it was my first time to siang ayam by my own. ya ya, i know i'm not actually need to blog it. like... baru belajar siang ayam? serius? to be honest, i'm not really love to cook. and this is one of my learning process while i'm staying not in the hostel. it's quite a challenge for myself to cook for the whole house. i never did it before. i never know anything. how much oil do i need to fry the chicken. how to cook this. how to cook that. till one day, i've called my mom and cried over this. haha. i asked her how to cook. what kind of ingredients should i put on it. shame on me. shame on me. shame on me.

and since that day, i learnt on how to cook ayam masak merah, tumis telur, tomyam, etc etc. i challenge myself, that i'm gonna be a good cook and prove it to my mom. haha. at least, i can cook for my family. at least, i can cook as i can bake. at least, there's someone out there who's gonna marry me. erk?

the real life of being a student just started. the real war begins. between me, assignments and good manners. and and some fun. well said, all work and no play makes jack a dull boy. aite? lets cut it off. next... hm hm. 

___ the life i live, it never run out of problems. surely, through hardship i learn something. something beautiful.  something at the first sight, i thought it was bad. but in the end, it's something useful to grow up with. i declared myself as an insecure mess. i thought run away was a good solution, but it wasn't. that makes me decide, i'll fight those hardships. i'll make sure, i win. god's will. 

**a month and days after, how are you?